…at some point, my heart just kicked my brain out of the driver’s seat and started steerin’.  It’s pretty nice, since I’ve come to think that I had become cold, callous and over-calculated person.  Rather, I’ve become more empathetic and compassionate.  However, there are also drawbacks.  I’m terribly emotional and many times, the rhyme and reason of my mind cannot win control over the intense emotions in my heart.  Maybe I’ve always been this way.  Maybe repression of that emotional self has finally come to surface and I have to deal with what people have already dealt with in their adolescent years.  Yes.  That’s what it feels like.  The last time I felt this lost and this emotionally inconsistent was in high school, when I had no idea who I was or who I wanted to be.  But the difference now is I have an idea of who I want to be - I suppose the real problem is suddenly discovering that I’m not the man I thought I was…and that the man I’ve found myself to be is disappointing.